seasons

I watched a Nats game up in DC with Karen and a few of her friends. It was glorious, the new park is really nice. I am glad I was able to close off my pre-salary life with an MLB game.

A new season of life is beginning. I had general orientation at SRMC today. Though twinges of loneliness and longing for home attempt to suppress my excitement, I am trying to remain optimistic. I know that God has brought me here for a reason, I know that He has a perfect plan. It's hard to control your emotions though. I am praying that I will feel at "home"-not California home, but feel like I belong, that the people around me want me to be here.

I am praying that carpooling to work works out too, that will save so much gas and be fun too. It only took me 30 minutes to get to work this morning. There is no traffic despite what others may say. If you are able to go the speed limit or higher, even if there are a lot of cars around-that's not traffic. Traffic is when you sit there and can't move, it's also known as "gridlock" or "congestion" Silly people who don't know what real traffic is. I'd say going to DC there is traffic and out to VA Beach, but definitely not on the way to P-burg in the morning-or afternoon for that matter.

I get to start doing actual work tomorrow, but I have a few more orientations to go to this week. I am hoping to get my CPR re-certified if they'll let me. I don't want to pay for it...

Well, time to sleep. I feel like turning off my computer too. I have a job now... so I don't need to check my e-mail as often. Technology has it's pros and cons. I often get tired of it. Good night.

-run for life

mountain top?

While waiting for a sign of some sort or a peace to come over one in effort to obey God’s will I feel like the answer is clearly in front of me, but I don’t want to fully accept it. I still feel like I need more confirmation! After talking with Sarah, I feel a little more confident in making my own decisions - obviously I want my decisions to be based on what God wants me to do, but perhaps if I am seeking God's counsel in the making of the decision... it is God's will when I come to a decision?

I applied at Remuda Ranch to the opening of Registered Dietitian, it's in Wickenburg, AZ and I specified that I would prefer Virginia, but hey, Arizona is much closer to home... right? Where is my home? My home is with Christ, oddly I feel at home almost where ever I go. Why? I suppose that's a spiritual gift, relationship building and mentoring. I wish there were more of a leap of faith here so that I would know "I was stepping out in faith." When people speak on the topic, I feel so out of place, because I just do. If I truly believe God wants me to do something, I just do it. I don't wait for a second guess to slip through my mind until it is already too late. I relate it to standing on the top of a 30-ft cliff over the ocean in Hawai'i. Everyone is scared to go, I look over the edge, see no ripples from rocks and take the plunge. Everyone else follows me after they see that I'm all right (true story actually) and they have a lot of fun doing so. That seems to be the story of my life. I just jump in and take the plunge after a brief glance to make sure there are no ripples from rocks.

I like warm weather. Arizona really wouldn't be so bad, and the rent is a lot cheaper than in California. It'd probably be cheaper than Virginia since nobody lives out there. I would have to use air conditioning though which would be weird because I've never needed that in my life. Well, I'm really tired. God will work everything out. I am trying to leave doors open as always so that He may be my guide and refuge. Lord You have my heart and I will search for Yours. I want to glorify You in all I do and say. Please help those heavy on my heart, You know who I'm talking about. Thanks buddy.